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11-11-2019, 09:11 PM
(This post was last modified: 09-01-2022, 01:08 AM by Fearless Community.
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Hello Fearless Community,
I have been thinking of this now a very very long time if i should publish my personal issues. And well.. looks like i am doing it now.
I am currently writing this and still thinking if i should. But if you read this... well then of course i published my personal issues. So yeah.. I am 15 years old and currently going through a hard time. I am very happy that i joined this community. I learned very much how to deal with some issues. I got to know many people all over the world just because i play this game called "Garrys Mod".
I am not sure why i am in this depressive-phase currently but yeah..
I think i should start with the beginning:
I joined the Fearless Community 2015/16. And now i am standing here as a Teacher. That was one of my biggest dreams when i joined this Community. Look.. i made it. But well... There was much time before i got Teacher.
As said.. i got to know many other people. I dont really want to make a list because i would maybe even forget someone and i dont want to hurt anyone here.
But how did i even get into this depressive-phase?
Well i am not sure actually. I met someone on FL who changed my life 180°. I mean.. i think so. But he changed it into a positive direction.
He was the first person who knew my biggest secret. He started giving me money and stuff for no reason actually. And then he added me on steam. I felt bad. I was sad and i had no other people to talk about my personal issues cause i was stupid and didnt trust my real-life friends... So after a while me and him started chatting and i told him my biggest secrets and from this point on... i got into a depressive-phase. I was sad, he was sad. I had to support him.. well i dont know if i had to but. I felt like that he needs support. I gave all my support to him but i was still depressed. I got bad in school and my life turned into a very very dark time. I went on parties a lot and always came home feeling bad and ill. After some months writing with him... he got a boyfriend. We didnt write that much anymore. And i felt sad again because i thought he would forget me or anything like this.
So i didnt have anyone to talk about my issues/problems.
But i had very big luck and met someone else. I think it was like a second chance. I am thanking this person very much that he supported me all the time. And that he was all the time with me when i needed him. (I also met him on FL)
There is just one more problem. Even if i get supported i still feel depressed and i am scared to tell my friends or my family. I am always scared of their reaction. All in all... i thank everyone who supported me and everyone who will still support me in future.
I am happy that i found this wonderful Community. And i will stay here a long time.
Thank you.
I have been thinking of this now a very very long time if i should publish my personal issues. And well.. looks like i am doing it now.
I am currently writing this and still thinking if i should. But if you read this... well then of course i published my personal issues. So yeah.. I am 15 years old and currently going through a hard time. I am very happy that i joined this community. I learned very much how to deal with some issues. I got to know many people all over the world just because i play this game called "Garrys Mod".
I am not sure why i am in this depressive-phase currently but yeah..
I think i should start with the beginning:
I joined the Fearless Community 2015/16. And now i am standing here as a Teacher. That was one of my biggest dreams when i joined this Community. Look.. i made it. But well... There was much time before i got Teacher.
As said.. i got to know many other people. I dont really want to make a list because i would maybe even forget someone and i dont want to hurt anyone here.
But how did i even get into this depressive-phase?
Well i am not sure actually. I met someone on FL who changed my life 180°. I mean.. i think so. But he changed it into a positive direction.
He was the first person who knew my biggest secret. He started giving me money and stuff for no reason actually. And then he added me on steam. I felt bad. I was sad and i had no other people to talk about my personal issues cause i was stupid and didnt trust my real-life friends... So after a while me and him started chatting and i told him my biggest secrets and from this point on... i got into a depressive-phase. I was sad, he was sad. I had to support him.. well i dont know if i had to but. I felt like that he needs support. I gave all my support to him but i was still depressed. I got bad in school and my life turned into a very very dark time. I went on parties a lot and always came home feeling bad and ill. After some months writing with him... he got a boyfriend. We didnt write that much anymore. And i felt sad again because i thought he would forget me or anything like this.
So i didnt have anyone to talk about my issues/problems.
But i had very big luck and met someone else. I think it was like a second chance. I am thanking this person very much that he supported me all the time. And that he was all the time with me when i needed him. (I also met him on FL)
There is just one more problem. Even if i get supported i still feel depressed and i am scared to tell my friends or my family. I am always scared of their reaction. All in all... i thank everyone who supported me and everyone who will still support me in future.
I am happy that i found this wonderful Community. And i will stay here a long time.
Thank you.
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